Friday, January 22, 2010

Importance of family

Over the holidays I found myself thinking back over the past year. And as I did, I realized that the year had gone by so quickly. It almost felt surreal to think that a year had passed. Is it possible that 2009 is no longer and 2010 is now upon us? YEAH! Not only had I awakened to the shear amazement of it all, I also awoke to the realization that family is everything to me.

For the first time in my life I feel at peace.
What is my peace? My peace is.... being happy with me. Being happy with who I am, what I look like; at peace with life in general. Before my husband and I left Canada on our overseas adventure, I worked as a Human Resources manager. Who I was, was what my job was. I quantified who I was with my job, my salary, my title. When we left Canada I left all that behind. I found it incredibly hard for the first 3 yrs to deal with no longer having a job or as I have come to think of it a "purpose of life title".
Since we moved to Holland I am much more at ease with the fact that I don't work outside of the home. I no longer associate who I am with my work nor do I feel any less of a person for being a stay at home mom. I know that what I am giving to my family is someone who dedicates her life to just being. Not "being" something but rather just being me. I read a fantastic book that basically taught me to just be. Be in the moment. Forget the future, forget the past ,just be there with the now. The moment you start thinking about the past or the future you lose sight of what is really important and that is being present in the current moment, because you only live for the now not for the then or the soon to come.

I now live for the now. I live for every moment I can spend smiling with my husband and kids. I live for every second my daughter asks me for the millionth time "when is my birthday?". I live for every second my son looks at me and says "Mom, I love you". And I live for every hug and kiss my husband gives me. Those are the things that count. That is the importance of family.... of life.

Give it a go. You might be surprised at the outcome.